Troubled meditations of insomnia
I am not really blessed when it comes to falling asleep. My wife for example can close her eyes and drift into a pleasant slumber. However, I go to sleep mostly out of exhaustion after having used up all the energy for the day. I am told this is not okay, and that one must go to bed with an empty mind, picture a sheep jumping over fences or something. Well that never happens and it’s always chaotic. If insomnia is a deep well, I am like a drunkard dancing around on its concrete lining.
My goal is to go to bed with an empty mind. But then what is mind if it’s empty? My mind is always a cacophony of anxious thoughts either from the past or the future. I am primitive that way, a hunter/gatherer mind which is scarred by the bites from the past and fears those from the future. It would be very hard to switch it off. Maybe meditation would help? 🧘♂️